Monday, March 16, 2015

birthday celebration and dreams!

Yesterday Lua's birthday celebration went very well! I don't have many pictures of our event but we had a photographer there and I can't wait to see the pictures, she is really good so I'm very excited to see what she got! When I get the pictures ill for sure post them! It was beautiful out and most of the snow is all gone, except for where Lua was buried of course, she is still making us work never a day off with her! We tried to get everything together as much ahead of time as possible so we filled the balloons the day before like I had mentioned and when I woke up in the morning, they were all flat!!! Ahh! So thankfully we had a lot of helpful hands and a friend who was willing to watch our 3 year old so we could start all over. Anyway after that whole issue, everything else came together very nicely. We had 7 lanterns for each month, those were beautiful to watch float away. Then 34 balloons for each week, and 212 flower petals for each day. Many people brought flowers and wore their Lua tshirts and it all looked amazing! We had a lunch afterwards and a nice relaxing day. Man I can't even believe she wasn't here for her birthday, she would have loved it.

speaking of her, I dont dream of her often, in fact I didn't have a dream about her at all until maybe a month ago! I thought I would dream about her all the time! But I dont usually :( anyway last night I did! It was weird and I'm simply writing it down so I dont forget it.
So I was looking at a photo album of her and I saw I had left her in the photo album!! And she was breathing! I quickly pulled her out and started yelling for someone to get me the suctioner, what we usually had to do with her when she was alive, and I began to suction and get her to breathe more, then she started talking and asking if I was able to get any secretions out at all, and I was but not enough to bring her stats up. I asked for the bag to give her breaths and she refused it.... Then turned into a man and it got really weird..... But I just can't believe I got to see and hold her, even if a dream... Sad that those are the moments I live for now....



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