projects

Having a 3 year old apparently doesn't keep me busy enough, between doing projects to keep Lua's memory alive, my side at home business design and printing tees, and recently adding a puppy to the mix that we decided to get to see if it would help the healing process, I feel like I have my hands full, yet I don't still don't feel satisfied. About the puppy, I'm not going to say it was a the best idea, I mean puppies are fun and our dog Mallo cup has a good personality, easy to train, comical, barks at everyone and everything, but it is still stressful and needless to say I have been having high blood pressure lately... possibly the constant battle between puppy and a toddler??? Either way, I have been working hard to find ways to honor Lua and her short life. One of my biggest fears is forgetting her. Slowly everyone else who knows our story will unfortunately forget her or push her back in their mind. A baby who was on this Earth for only 7 months, and especially when you didn't live the life day in and day out, I find it to be hard to leave a lasting impression. But please don't get me wrong, I believe she touched many peoples lives while she was here which makes me so happy to know about. I have read a lot of stories before having Lua, of children who passed away from cancer, SMA, and other things and while I felt for the families so very deeply, as time goes on it does slip in the back of your mind because it isn't directly impacting your life. Well, that is how it seems anyway, who knows.

Here are some things I have done to try to surround us with memories of our baby.

Lock of hair in a small glass bottle
Framed some of her shirts
A friend had a blanket made for me of all of Lua's receiving blankets that we used every day!
Lua tees, her actual feet print on them, working on getting everyone in our town to have one!