Little lives

I've made the switch to the iPhone... The doctors were having a hard time hearing me so I needed to update my phone and finally decided to go with the iPhone after resisting all these years. But now I don't know why I resisted. It is amazing to use a phone that actually opens up apps! Compared to my windows phone that was pretty outdated and nothing really supported it. Oh well. Anyway..
This week my heart was shattered again hearing about the sweetest little boy who passed away. Little Logan, if you are on my Facebook you have seen some things about him. He had such the sweetest little soul, if I could meet anyone in the world it would be him. He is one of those babies that makes you feel blessed just to know his name. Amazing baby. He has had one thing after another thrown at him since he was born, yet he took it all with a huge smile on his face. This little boy was sure loved too. He radiated love in all his pictures, just the most precious thing ever. My heart hurts so much for his mommy and daddy, they poured their lives into him and gave him so much. I remember after losing lua how blah life became. There is so much that goes into having a special needs child, it becomes hard to know what to do with yourself when they are gone. It is eerie to not have all the machines. It is extra dark with out their equipment shining at night. It is lonely, and it just overall hurts. Now this precious family has to take all of this in. It is hard. Genetics suck. It is so hard to comprehend that one tiny little gene change can cause all of these crazy issues to happen to our babies. 
I look at sol and how much he has improved since birth, yet he is still no where near being able to move like a normal baby. I still wonder what happened that could cause this much damage to him, I'll always wonder that, but I know it doesn't matter. What matters is to keep moving forward and enjoy every day, every moment, because some day maybe there won't be another day. I know that all too well and seeing what this family went through and seeing another baby lose his life, is a huge reminder. 
Tonight I think we will light some lanterns and send them off in memory of Logan, lua, and all those gone too soon. Wishing for a day where babies don't have to be affected by such diseases.