I switched to my new OB last week, who I will see again this week. We learned very little from that appointment. He actually started off by saying to me, "Well, you have a very complicated background...." why thank you........................ -_-
He has delivered a ton of babies and said he hasn't once had a case like ours, but promises it will be uneventful. His part maybe. We are still debating on how we want to get little Mr. out of there. Do we go c-section or not? Do they take baby earlier than 39 weeks? And if the heart still stays in issue do we just go to Madison. The ob asked, what does your specialist dr. recommend? My specialist dr. recommends whatever my ob thinks we should do, but my ob disagrees, no no, we need to know the specialist opinion. Back and forth back and forth, I feel like a ping pong ball most of the time here! I think my specialist dr. leans a little more towards doing a natural birth, while my ob leans more towards doing a csection. I'm thinking more of a natural birth if possible, I'm just worried if it is possible for baby to get stuck and then we run into big problems or something. I am hoping that the baby will make the decision for us though. If labor starts naturally and things progress than great! But he will Not stay head down! Every other appointment he is head up, head down, head up, head down, maybe if he stays head up then we will have our answer as to what we are going to do. But this week we have an ob appointment, an appointment with my specialist, and an MRI appointment, Between them all I would hope we would hope we get a better idea of what we will do. It is a little hilarious, few days ago my mom and I ran into one of my sisters old friends and she asked when I was due, "Oh you have a lot of time yet!" Huh????? 6 weeks is a long time for you? Oh that's right you aren't the one getting monitored every single week. Besides Lua came at 38 weeks, so there is potentially less time than 6 weeks left.
I'm thinking I need to make a shirt that I can wear every where that says, If you can't say anything constructive, keep your mouth shut. I don't want your opinion. (maybe that part could go on the back?)
Holidays, oh holidays... I think we overcompensated for our troubles this year during black friday or maybe I should say thursday? Really is there anything better than retail therapy though? Especially when you are being tricked into thinking you are getting things for a way better price than normal.. I mean this works every time on me! But, I found a gold mine this black friday that I am in love with!
http://mylokai.com/shop/lokai-bracelet-clear.html
I saw these at one of our local stores during the summer, I thought they looked cool but I didn't really read into them or anything, just walked by it. But I have been seeing someone on pinterest talk about these a lot and how they have more meaning behind them, yadda yadda, so I have been meaning to go back to that store and look at them but I just have not had time yet. So while black friday shopping I found some! They arent the authentic kind though but the meaning is still the same, the ones I found were actually the link below, but some day I plan on getting one of the lokai ones.
http://www.balanceyourlifebracelet.com/shop/
If you haven't seen them before, they are pretty cool and I found them to be so very fitting for me! I use to be really into wearing those rubber bracelets as a teenager, and that had no meaning at all, so when I read about them I knew I had to get one!
This is the one I got. I found that it was very fitting for me because it is something I lack. A reminder of strength and stability. I have caught myself glancing down at the bracelet and it continues to remind me of something more. All we have been through, even though all I have felt is weak, there has to be strength in there somewhere or else I wouldn't be at the spot that I am. I really hate when people tell me that I am strong. You don't know, and just because on the outside I seem like I have it all together, I very much so don't. But, it is okay if I tell myself to be strong, and along with this to have stability, I don't think you can get very far if you aren't stable in the current situation you are in. So if you haven't gathered, I love these! I find it so funny how such a little thing can make you feel so many different emotions and feelings. I love it!
My husband came around while I was looking at these and I convinced him to get one too!
My husband came around while I was looking at these and I convinced him to get one too!
I love his as well! It is so so fitting for him too! But I believe this is a hit or miss kind of thing, you either really get it and love it or it is like, eh. load of crap.... which I think is totally fine. Whatever works for you, and after so long being down in the ground, any little thing that helps truly feels amazing! I can see myself wearing this bracelet while we are hoping to bring this little baby into the world and hoping this gives a reminder to what the goal is. No matter what the outcome will be, we need to stay grounded, strong and stable, using our inner energy, and get through the next step of life. Corny, but it will do for now!
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