2 years ago.

Lua would have been 2 years old today. 2 years ago our lives changed completely in a direction we never saw coming. Never had any thoughts or concerns that we would have a medically fragile child and now what could have been children. Not once during my pregnancy with lua did we expect anything to be wrong, my biggest concern was how life will be with two kids now. Now we will never know how it feels to have that "normal" family. Two healthy kids trying to juggle normal every day life. It is just funny the one thing I thought about the most, is never in my future anymore. Although we lost our original hopes and dreams for her, she gave us so much in return. She was like a ball of love. Precious baby girl. She has forever change my life. And today we celebrated her.

I asked the Ronald house if we could get a meal for the house in memory of her, they decided a lunch would be best. The staff made posters and hung them up on everyone's doors! And yesterday I was meaning to go get a cake for today, but I got out of the hospital too late, all I could find was a cookie cake. Then in the morning we called dominos and ordered the pizza, which promised us to be at the house by noon. I also decided I wasn't 100% happy with the cake, and I also wanted an ice cream cake so in the morning after seeing Sol, I ran to DQ and got a cake.
The staff had the kitchen nicely decorated, it was so sweet! The pizza did not make it there when they said it would, though, I was so sad, people had started coming for the pizza and here we had to wait an hour longer than suppose to. After calling a few times they did end up giving us free soda, and after thiago called and complained about the wait, they actually refunded our whole purchase! I'd like to think that was a gift to Lua!
Once the pizza got there and we set everything up, we spent about an hour talking to people about Lua and telling them her story it was a nice way to celebrate her life, by telling strangers about her. She still touches lives even being gone.
I'm glad I had the opportunity to do this, it kept me occupied from this day and how hard this day can be if I have nothing to distract me. Sol was also a good distraction and I'm glad I had him to snuggle. He was super sleepy today though, think he is feeling a little under the weather, we will see how he is in the morning. Tomorrow I do my 24 hour cares with sol, so if he isn't feeling well I will be with him all day and night.
Everyone at the hospital were really awesome too, many came in to wish Lua a happy birthday, and many spent time talking about lua with me. One respiratory therapist said Sol will have to live for two... I kinda liked that idea.

Happy 2nd Birthday Lua. I love you so much!